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Post by brianna72 on Apr 29, 2017 2:36:11 GMT
I feel so alone right now and i have no one i can talk too. I lost my mom in December and when I lost her then I lost everything. She was the most important person in my life. She knew how to make me laugh and she didn't like when I cried. Now she's gone I'm crying a dozen or more times a day. I don't feel comfortable talking to just anyone they don't understand what I'm going through. I feel like my life is over now and I don't want to go on without her. Some days I feel like I'm going insane and my heart is breaking. Plus I'm still deal with my broken wrist since December and the pain is excruciating and I don't know why I'm still alive I'm so tired of suffering with pain day after day after day I want my life just to be over. This life is so hard and impossible everyday. Haven't had a good night's sleep all week and I've been dealing with a lot of body aches and pains and migraines and plus my wrist pain. I'm just so tired of being alone day after day after day. I hate my life more and more everyday. My mom was my best friend and confidant and my rock. I lost the one person that always cared about me and cared about me. I just don't know how I'm going to move on without her telling me what to do in my ear. I have so many anxieties and fears about my life. I lost the one person that was my safety net and always made me feel safe and secure. I'm so lonely for some kind of companionship. Some days I feel so lonely that I want to die. I'm tired of suffering all the time in pain and loneliness and I had a lot of that before my mom passed but now it's reached a point that is its hard to move on in this life without my mother being that there right beside me. This is the hardest thing I've ever had to face on my own. When my dad passed I had my mom now even though I have two brothers but they have their own lives and I feel so alone. I wish my life could be just over and done with. Then maybe I wouldn't be suffering anymore.
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Post by blu on Jun 15, 2017 16:24:06 GMT
Hi I could have written the same post. I feel exactly the same way. I lost my Mom in September. She was my rock. My best friend, the person who understood me and cared. Now my phone is silent. My siblings have their own life and family. I am on my own. I reach out to them but they don't have time for me. They know how much i needed Mom and how hard it would be for me. I don't want to be in this world without my Mom. I mean nothing to no one. I have struggled with anxiety and depression all my life and my mom was the one who kept me alive. Now I just want to go. Life feels meaningless and worthless. I get no support from friends, in fact it has made life even more painful to know that something as devestating as losing my Mom can happen and those I thought would care don't. I am so lonely tired and sad. Not getting easier getting harder. I cry constantly. No one understands. But you do and I understand you as well. Losing the person who loved you the most in the world and you loved back is soul breaking. I just want to go. I don't like this world. I just want to be with my Mom. I get it. I am sorry you are in such pain it hurts so much. I wouldn't wish it on anyone
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Post by ELM on Jul 29, 2017 11:29:31 GMT
My heart breaks reading all of these posts. You are not alone and I feel the exact same ..... none of us are alone although it feels that way. Please try to talk to as many people as you can, maybe someone who is licensed. Life is Hard anyway, when you lose someone you depend on for EVERYTHING it makes it 10x Harder. My mom was my best friend too and the only parent I have been able to trust and count on my whole life - I get it. Me and my family live in the same town - 2 mins up the road because of our closeness. Us lucky ones - that did have an amazing bond with our mothers, also have it the hardest. Try to remember the person she was and what she taught you. Do whatever you have to do to get through it. I have two young kids - what I need a lot of is space. They don't get it, they whine, they complain -they act like kids - as they should. But the pain I'm experiencing inside is preventing me from being a good mother to them. God bless you all - this forum is awesome and it's great we have each other to vent to.
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Post by Trystal on Aug 9, 2017 19:45:53 GMT
Hi, i lost my mom on march 31st 2017. A day after my birthday. I had to take her off life support. She died in my arms. I didnt want her to die alone. I am an only child and have no family or siblings. Feeling lost and miserable everyday is what im feeling. She was all i had. I dont want to be in this world anymore. My dad died a couple months before my mom. I am still not do well with that either. So i feel u on what ur saying. I dont know what to do!!!!
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Post by Mel on Aug 10, 2017 21:43:59 GMT
I'm reading everyone's word and it's exactly how I feel,i lost my mom May 25 and my world was over... The person that mad me happy, loved me unconditionally, my best friend, we used to go shopping together, cook, you name it we did it... But by then I had to be a bit strong and hide my emotions for my dad... I wanted to be there for him and I moved back home with him to help... Little did I know the 1st of July my dad had a heart attack and went into a comma for 10 days... I was sooo alone... I would sleep in the hospital every day know every nurses name, his medication how he was doing everything... Until one day I went home for a quick shower and I received a phone call saying he was having another heart attack... And he was gone... In a month I lost the both persons that were my rock... My all... I have no family here... And all my friends have disappeared... I have no purpose... I need back surgery so I can't work at the moment I'm in 4 walls everyday with no help... Im just feed up and tired... There is no purpose to continue for what? My phone never rings... Nobody cares if I'm here or not...
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Post by Becky on Sept 4, 2017 2:17:19 GMT
Wow I could have written word for word what many of you are saying. I lost my dad just 6 weeks ago and he was my favorite person in the world. I do not have a great relationship with my mom so I feel like an orphan. I have 4 siblings, 3 are married with kids. I live out of state. My friends are not sure how to help so they are giving me distance and I don't know how to cry out to them that I need them. I feel incredibly alone. I don't know how to get through this and am terrified that this is my life now. I am living in a constant fog every day and nobody knows.
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Post by bbroken on May 11, 2018 21:48:23 GMT
I can relate to all of the above. I lost my dad 8mths ago. My dad was the only person who loved me unconditionally, who made sure I was part of the family. My mum never liked me as far as my memory goes. My siblings are all on her side. After my dad passed I have been alone. I grieved alone, I have no one to share memories of my dad with. i quickly realized that losing my dad also meant losing the rest of the family. I feel like an orphan now. I miss my dad so much. No words can describe how much I love him and miss him. I often want to join him as my life has fallen apart. I talk to my dad and I know he can hear me. I half believed in the spiritual after life and after my dad passed I became totally convinced. Our loved ones have left us physically, but they are still there spiritually. This is what is getting me through daily. I still have my dad with me spiritually. I asked him to never leave me as I am all alone. The family has estranged me. The pain of losing my dad and the family as well is just too much. I don't know how to get through the rest of my life. I am just existing, like a robot.
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Post by Melissa on Jan 29, 2019 14:50:35 GMT
I swear the person Blu must be my sister. Maybe not. I feel exactly the same. It's been one year one month and 16 days and it hasn't gotten better. My sister won't talk to anyone and she quit Facebook. I feel like I've lost them both now. I get it though. I'm just existing day to day. No joy. Everything reminds me of my Mama. It's hard to feel normal.
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Post by Melissa on Jan 29, 2019 14:52:52 GMT
It's been one year four months and 16 days...sorry it too early for math this morning
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Post by juliannmhall on Dec 29, 2020 18:16:58 GMT
All my love and prayers to you
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