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Post by Stephanie88 on Jan 24, 2019 19:58:04 GMT
I recently lost my mother to cervical Cancer December 23rd 2018. Yesterday was one month already that she has been gone. Some days I'm fine Others I feel so overwhelmed with the sadness grief I miss her so much her voice her soft hands her sassy attitude lol I'm trying to hold it together and not fall into a deep depression, because I know that's not what she would have wanted, and I also have 2 small children to take care of a 2 year old and a 3 year old so I really can't afford too. I just don't know how to snap myself out of this I even had thoughts of not wanting to be here anymore, just wanted to go be with her, and my older brother who I lost when I was only 7 years old I know I can't think like that, especially being a mother of 2 kids who need me but it just hurts so much my heart hurts so much sometimes I feel like I'm just drowning in my grief.
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Post by Missingthem on Jan 25, 2019 7:14:05 GMT
I’m so sorry you are feeling this way and have lost your mom the way you did. I lost my dad to cancer 4 months ago. I had to help my mother with things so I didn’t break until the day that marked his 4 month passing and I’m also having many desires to not be here. I have to take care of my mom financially now and soon my granddad will be moving in and I will become his caregiver. I wasn’t ready to loose my dad. I’m not ready to be responsible for 2 more people- not prepared and overwhelmed. I know I have to be strong , but friends don’t see how badly I need even the simple comfort of just their presence around. Drowning is exactly how I feel and it’s agonizing. I feel like a bad person for having unhealthy thoughts, but I misssss my dad and I can’t fill his shoes. I know no one is exactly asking me to, but that’s how it sometimes feels and I don’t want to fail him. I want a hug from him and advice and him to be here. I hope you are being given all the comfort and support you need so you can be present for your children.
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Post by Melissa on Jan 29, 2019 14:41:00 GMT
Hugs to you both. I took care of my dad for many years after a stroke. It was exhausting. Please join a caregivers support group. It will help. And keep reaching out to your friends. They won't know you need help unless you tell them. I lost my dad in Feb 2015. I was barely making it when my Mama died in September 2017. It still feels like yesterday and I'm not ever going to be the same. I just can't be in a world that she isn't in. I am thankful they are no longer in pain but I miss them both terribly. I still want to grab my phone and call her.
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Post by donnal1962 on Mar 27, 2020 5:48:41 GMT
Hi, I lost my mommy September 11 2018 in a house fire I lived with my mommy but I was in the hospital when she passed away and I blame myself for not being there to help her get out. I miss her so very much.
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Post by herlegacy on May 23, 2020 3:41:57 GMT
I lost my mom the same day to a heart attack. I was pregnant with twins, who are now almost 14 months old. I understand your pain.
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