Losing my mom

I lost my mom 2 1/2 years ago at the age of 24. It hasn't gotten easier and I feel as though it will never be easy. I still cry just as much now, as I did the day I found out. It was the hardest part of my life. She was always the one to pick me up when I was down and she always knew just what to say. It's so hard being a mom myself with her being gone. She was my sunshine in a cloudy day. I don't know many people my age that have lost their mom as suddenly as I did. I feel like people who havent lost their mom truly don't understand the gut feeling you get every time you think of the day you lost them. I can remember exactly what I was doing and how it felt. Walking into the hospital and just knowing that I was never going to get to tell her how much I loved her again. Sitting next her and crying because all I wanted was my mom and i couldn't reach her. I feel as though it's always going to be painful no matter what.